Lately things with my boyfriend have been kind of confusing, to say the least. 

He wants to move to Vermont because they have better gun laws than we do here in New York and guns are his passion. He’s in the National Guard and wants to get a job with a company in Vermont that makes military weapons. And that’s great! ..For him. 

I want to get the most out of life as I can and I feel like I won’t be able to do that if I move with him. I’m not exactly sure what I want yet, but I know that being with him is nice when we’re together. 

When we’re apart it’s like I don’t really exist to him. No texts, no calls. I’m always the one to call/text. But when we’re together it’s nice because he shows his love for me. But I want that more than just a few times a week. I want to be a part of his whole life. And that’s another thing that has gotten me down. He kept saying this is going to be great for him. Vermont is the perfect place for him. He even went as far as to state what kind of house he wants and that he wants a dog, but not once did he say what we’re going to do. I asked him if he wanted me to come with him, because I have no problem moving place to place, and he said yes. He also said he knows it’s not what I want and I told him that I want to support him. 

I would just like a little more from him as well. I’m kind of stuck right now. I want to be with him, but I’d like a little more interest from him in regards to my future as well.